Beauty in Today

Today is such a beautiful day and even though it is still quite warm outside to be the end of October (thank you Texas heat) the weather isn't the only beautiful part of today.  Today and for a few days now, I have been almost manic: smiling, laughing, being productive.  I understand these actions don't usually qualify for being manic, but in contrast to my disposition for the majority of this year, I almost don't know how to contain all of the positive emotion welling up inside.  I feel... happy.  And there's no particular reason really.  I suppose I've figured a few things out about my life, I may have found my place in this world, and I have recently found a career goal that will help me live out my dreams.  Okay scratch the for no reason part.  That's a perfect valid reason for being so immensely happy!  There is certainly lots of security and confidence in knowing what you want to do with your life.


On an entirely related note, I came to this realization about happiness when I saw this interview of Fiona Apple.  For those of you that know me you'll know that I have followed Fiona's entire career and am one of her biggest fans.  I have always related to her in that I too feel misunderstood in my view of the world.  People perceive her as angry or sad or spiteful, but really she is allowing herself to reach a level of vulnerability that when achieved, a whole spectrum of beauty is unlocked.

In this interview she talks about finding her place in the world and how she was able to become truly happy.  Before her first album she had no clue if this would be what she was destined to do, but she allowed herself to dive in because it felt right and she NEEDED to do it.  She trusted her heart and soul and it paid off.  She is a constant inspiration to me to continue to be who I am, even if who I am is not easily understood.

Today I just wanted to celebrate the beauty in being happy and in having another day to seek out my place in the world.  *cue series of inspirational posters*

Enjoy your day!  Be awesome and trust your heart.

-Little Bird